Post by dearme on Feb 11, 2018 1:21:02 GMT -5
I’m a 38 year old woman who has suffered from ADHD my whole life, but wasn’t formally diagnosed until I was was 24 so I’ve been taking Adderall for 14 years and it’s no longer working and I it seems the older I get the worse it gets. I want to come off of it to try all natural treatments, However I was unaware of how addictive it was. I’ve never really talked with anyone else who has ADHD until I started trying to come off my meds. It’s just not something I have shared with people due to the overwhelming amount of people including my own family who feel it’s not real or that you can suck it up.
I only take 30mg twice a day, but I can’t handle the sever withdrawals my body feels on top of my billion thoughts, emotional issues, and 100% inability to stay focused with just one missed dose . My dr says there is nothing out there that helps with the withdrawals of adderall. I can’t afford a treatment center, nor can afford to take time off of work for a treatment center. Im literally going crazy, I’m beyond depress, I DO NOT WANT TO DIE but the thoughts want go away. I need to get off this crap and try something that’s not addictive, I can’t keep going on this way. My marriage is on the rocks big time because I can’t finish a damn thing, I can’t make myself do things I know I should even things that are mandatory. I’m losing time literally, lately I have seriously went to bed on Sunday and felt like I woke up on Friday with not a damn thing accomplished. I just feel as if my life has come to a dead end. I have the most amazing kids and grandkids yet I can’t be the mom and grandma I need to be want to and should be,all because of this most God awful disorder.
I try so hard to make myself do right, stay on task,but the ac unit clicks , the dog barks, a car rides by, the phone rings, I walk into a room with intentions on doing something , yet see something else and my heads off to the race, it’s the most vicious endless cycle and I can’t take it no more. When I flushed my meds the first time and I got so sick by day 5 my husband called the dr and made me take them. However when he’s pissed, I’m now called a pill head (WHICH I AM NOT I ONLY TAKE MY MEDICINE AS PRESCRIBED! )I’m called a mental case, aPsychopath and much more.
Before I’m attacked for staying, please just keep any negativity to yourself. Like I said earlier I know what I should do, I just can’t seem to make myself do it. I’m in no place to handle a divorce right now, I gotta get my head some what in order before I can tackle a painful divorce, after all we’ve been married almost 20 years, it’s just not that easy to let go of the love of ur life. HE WASNT ALWAYS SO HATEFUL! It’s largely his inability to understand my disorder, and my outburst and the scary roller coaster of emotions , anger, and sadness I’ve been on for the past few years. Hell I hate me!
Any how if anyone can please share things you did to come off the adderall as well as alternative treatments, I’m open to suggestions. At this point I don’t have much to lose, other then my life. AGAIN I DONT REALLY WANT TO DIE, I JUST FEAR THE MADNESS WILL WIN.
I only take 30mg twice a day, but I can’t handle the sever withdrawals my body feels on top of my billion thoughts, emotional issues, and 100% inability to stay focused with just one missed dose . My dr says there is nothing out there that helps with the withdrawals of adderall. I can’t afford a treatment center, nor can afford to take time off of work for a treatment center. Im literally going crazy, I’m beyond depress, I DO NOT WANT TO DIE but the thoughts want go away. I need to get off this crap and try something that’s not addictive, I can’t keep going on this way. My marriage is on the rocks big time because I can’t finish a damn thing, I can’t make myself do things I know I should even things that are mandatory. I’m losing time literally, lately I have seriously went to bed on Sunday and felt like I woke up on Friday with not a damn thing accomplished. I just feel as if my life has come to a dead end. I have the most amazing kids and grandkids yet I can’t be the mom and grandma I need to be want to and should be,all because of this most God awful disorder.
I try so hard to make myself do right, stay on task,but the ac unit clicks , the dog barks, a car rides by, the phone rings, I walk into a room with intentions on doing something , yet see something else and my heads off to the race, it’s the most vicious endless cycle and I can’t take it no more. When I flushed my meds the first time and I got so sick by day 5 my husband called the dr and made me take them. However when he’s pissed, I’m now called a pill head (WHICH I AM NOT I ONLY TAKE MY MEDICINE AS PRESCRIBED! )I’m called a mental case, aPsychopath and much more.
Before I’m attacked for staying, please just keep any negativity to yourself. Like I said earlier I know what I should do, I just can’t seem to make myself do it. I’m in no place to handle a divorce right now, I gotta get my head some what in order before I can tackle a painful divorce, after all we’ve been married almost 20 years, it’s just not that easy to let go of the love of ur life. HE WASNT ALWAYS SO HATEFUL! It’s largely his inability to understand my disorder, and my outburst and the scary roller coaster of emotions , anger, and sadness I’ve been on for the past few years. Hell I hate me!
Any how if anyone can please share things you did to come off the adderall as well as alternative treatments, I’m open to suggestions. At this point I don’t have much to lose, other then my life. AGAIN I DONT REALLY WANT TO DIE, I JUST FEAR THE MADNESS WILL WIN.